Late Night Brooding.

So yet another late night under the pulsating glow of my computer...
So what's going on? I missed my first class back from break...Turns out the class was delayed for a lecture by Dave Masters from ACME. What's worse is even after the fact I still did not go. Really should have, but I have the programs at home, but yet another assignment being pushed aside. Not to mention this rig is getting close to finished, but still so far away.
Gave the script to Jay to read, not sure I agree with some story points, but we'll talk. What was more important was the breakdowns and logistics he brought to the table, with a team like this not only will it be made, but it will be made smart, and for the cheapest I can get. With the illumination that I may not need $600 insurance, it means more for other departments. If I can get this made, and get it out their than I have something to show for once, something to say. That I ACTUALLY have some proof of skill in this industry, lets hope I don't fuck it up.
I'm really going to pour myself into this one, and get to writing more for myself. I feel I used to have a sense of structure and storytelling on paper a long time ago, I've just put so much of that behind me in these last months, hell maybe even year. I'm realizing more and more of who I was when I yearned to go to film school and create, and who I became when I "was a film student." I've been so caught up in making sure I become what I set out to do, that I forgot you have to actually do it at some point.
So here I am again ranting about filmmaking and while staring down my T-Posed Linguini wondering what the fuck I'm doing. How long can I straddle these mediums before I end up flat on my face...Only time will tell.